The beautiful birth of May

The beautiful birth of May

It's spring and the month which lends it's name to my beautiful second hypnobaby May. May turned one last week which has given me a chance to reflect on how amazing her birth was. I was very well prepared for my labour with May having recently trained to teach the Babies in Waiting course. I had a slightly difficult birth experience with my first daughter & had worked really hard to conquer my fears surrounding that experience. Given that I have suffered with health related anxiety all my life, it took a lot of time & patience to really let the hypnobirthing techniques sink in. We had booked and really clicked with our lovely Doula & my husband had read all the things I had written in my journal so was prepared with the right things to say to me during labour. I'd had a busy day the day before May arrived, lots of walking and meeting friends. Although my guess date was still a few days away, my waters broke with a big thump at about 9pm that evening. Graham & I got a bit shaky & excited & nervous. We were going to meet our baby very soon & we both knew what we had to do. I felt I needed a little support so I rang Jo from Babies in Waiting & she was comforting & reassuring. Suggested that we go to bed & sleep if we could, so we both snuggled up in the bed & waited. At around midnight my surges began to get more regular but I didn't need anything more than focusing on my breathing at first. I got Graham to get me one of his t-shirts to cuddle as the reassuring smell of him has always made me feel safe & secure. I also had my daughter's cuddly rabbit which was really comforting & a reminder of how I had birthed one beautiful baby & I could do it again. As things began to progress I found myself really concentrating on my breathing & my focus. It was amazing & such a full body experience but every time my surges came, I was able to allow my body to just do what it wanted to do. I let myself make sounds, move into whichever position felt right, totally being free to follow my instincts. Things progressed much quicker this time than with my first & I found myself having little conversations with myself in my head to cope. The affirmations I had practiced & repeated coming back to me when I needed them, accompanied by little snatches of songs I had listened to that day. Graham was amazing & totally there for me with gentle caresses & all the words I had wanted him to say to me to keep me positive. At one point he said he was going to check on the birth pool & I told him in no uncertain terms to stay. It's amazing how you can just follow your instincts when no one asks you a direct question, you can just say what you need. By about 3am the midwives had arrived & my lovely Doula was with me too, helping me & Graham with little things which I was not aware of, but which meant the world in retrospect. I was still focusing & managing & then I began to get worried. Suddenly out of no where came the doubt. What if my birth went down the same route as my first experience? How could I cope if it went on for hours & hours? It is such hard work, I can't keep going. Between surges I said that I was worried to my Doula & she calmly replied 'don't worry, this is the sound of a baby being born'. It was all I needed to hear. In my mind from then I just heard myself saying 'I am a warrior Goddess!'. I don't know where it came from but it helped me & then Graham said he could see baby hair. Our baby was nearly with us & I knew then that I could do it. At 5.20am with the sun beginning to come up, little May arrived & it happened so quickly I couldn't believe it. She was here & I was holding her & all I could think was 'I did it', 'everything is alright' & it never occurred to me that it could have happened any other way. It is the most profound experience to hold your new born baby & be truly present in that moment. At May's first Birthday our lovely doula Leila, was with us & she gave us a picture. We are together holding May just after she was born. It took me right back to that moment and made me tearful with joy remembering our first meeting with this beautiful little person. What an amazing gift to have had such an incredible birthing experience. Thank goodness for Babies in Waiting, hypnobirthing & my support team. Even a natural worrier like me, can have an amazing birthing experience. Catrine